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There are happenings afoot in my work life, and I can't decide if they are positive or negative. They just are at this point. I am resigning a position I have held for 3 years in a company I have worked for, for nearly 6 years. I am leaving before they get a chance to drag me though the mud and hold me accountable for the sins of the group. But that being said, I have known it is time to go for a long time. When you are in a role that is solely designed to be prepped for the next position up - the manager - and you have decided that you don't want to be the manager, it is time to leave. I spent 2 years keeping the branch together in absence of the manager and I hated doing it. I was so stressed and worked to death that I put myself in the ER late one December night a few years ago because of kidney stones. I have developed pain in my feet that can't be cured by pills or surgery. I just can't convince myself that I want to do that forever. It is very scary - leaving a job without a new one. But I can't just wait for the axe to fall and then have to tell every employer that I was terminated. So, I am giving ample notice and leaving. My manager is a cool guy and understands the situation and respects that. My family is supportive, because they have seen the crap I have put up with for so long. But it is scary. I had finally come to a place (financially) that I was pretty happy with - paying down debt, able to take my girl to the movies every now and then, and even planning a vacation for next year. And all of that goes out the window if someone doesn't think my resume is the best one of the pile. Happy Holidays.