Static

My home space is filled with polished surfaces. At least, my surfaces are polished.


I don't feel the need to express an opinion on the little things--yes, it annoys me when the dryer is put on the timer settings instead of the pre-programmed options, but is it an opinion really worth expressing? I don't think so. Petty things like that lead to constant bickering and arguing about nothing. They take up time that I am not willing to spend. So, I let things go and don't worry about them.


But that also means that I have a tendency to let big things go without comment as well. Because it is a rare argument that I find a good use of time. It is so wasteful and hurtful and not worth my tears and blood pressure. I'm not trying to paint myself as a martyr that suffers in silence, but as someone who will just shut that anger or pain into a box in my heart or mind and not think about it.


I could analyze and explain why I am the way I am--a peacemaker or a neutral, because of the way I was raised, or the lessons I have learned or the people who have hurt me. But it doesn't matter why--it is wonderful to see where the roots of behavior come from so that you can understand your motivations. But it doesn't change what I am doing. And I don't really care the reasons why other people do what they do--it doesn't change the wrong that has been done.


We all are responsible for our behavior, even if your daddy was mean, or you've been through bad relationships. Learn what you were supposed to learn and own your behavior. If you didn't learn anything, then that says something about you, too.


And that, I think, is an opinion worth expressing. Being authentic is the only way you become a more complete person. Why else are we here?